One last thing before sleep. Today was much better. Much of it was due to all the comments and email I received. Thanks to all of you and especially to the people I wasn't able to contact through email or their blogs.
Ray is still in Modesto and I'll go tomorrow with my older son. I managed to get all the medical information to them - it wasn't sent along with him and they were understandably confused. They were silly enough to ask Ray (still doped up on morphine) and then called me. He was telling them about meds he hasn't taken in a couple of years and missed one he's taking now. I keep records, at least of physician names and addresses and his medications. I have a pretty good idea of the various diagnoses.
My big question is "why am I doing this"? What if I were wrong? Isn't there a central location somewhere besides my computer? He has a primary physician and at least 6 or 7 specialists. All his medical records should be coordinated and since the primary physician refers to the specialist, I'd think that's where everything should be. Maybe it is and they just hadn't sent it on yet. I don't know.
I'm ranting, sorry.
I did talk to him late this afternoon and he sounded a little more together. With that much pain, morphine can be the only effective drug but it puts him (and probably most of us) on a whole different planet.
Girls are doing okay with it (sort of). Rochelle takes things the most to heart and was sad but I think I reassured her somewhat. I didn't tell them any more than necessary since I don't know much yet myself. Elcie has a scratchy throat. Please no more strep - not now. I'll see how she is tomorrow.
I did almost nothing today which is probably what I needed to do. Messed around on computer, did a little house stuff, and then crashed for a while. There is something about the late afternoon that gets to me. Most times I plow through it and it always passes but sometimes I just give in and let someone else take over for a while.
Good night all - I'll get back eventually to recipes, silliness, and just stuff.